Okay, well I didn’t make it but none the less, it was given to me. A family friend needed some outlets changed out and my boyfriend knew how to do it and so instead of my uncle making the 50 dollars, my boyfriend got it instead. I had to reformat my computer AGAIN because the D drive kept doing the chkdsk thingy at start up and I was fed up with it. I couldn’t use the back up deal to another day because it kept telling me NO. So, I did the reformat and voila no more problem, I would have tried an easier route of fixing it if I knew the route but considering my intelligence in computers only runs so far.

As for my diet goes, I was way over last night and I didn’t care, I was just hungry and I let go. The rest of the week has been well within ranges for calories and pretty much everything else, the only thing I usually have a hard time controlling is sodium. Kinda weird since I don’t have high blood pressure or I probably think of it as YET. I went over on cholesterol because of one egg, that B**TRD! Since, I started charting my cholesterol, I’m very rarely over and today just happened to be one of those days and it pissed me off. I always forget that eggs are loaded with cholesterol but since I hardly have eggs, it’s not that bad. This is the first day I went over on cholesterol in like two weeks, I think before that was like 3 months, so no worries there.

I started a weight loss blog at my other url www.lnish.com and I hope those that are looking for motivation or inspiration decide to stop by!

THANKS!

R was telling me his friend said I looked thinner * at least someone has noticed * and asked how I was doing it. R told him that I take this sh*t seriously and that I eat a bunch of plants and very little junk food. O said he couldn’t live that way, that’d he’d go insane and of course, dear sweetheart had to ruin the moment by also sharing that they spoke of the differences of losing weight between men and women. I didn’t need to hear that honey has lost 8 lbs by doing NOTHING other than going overnight at work where it’s more physical for him and he’s constantly being shifted from one department to another. Yah, save that for yourself, let me gloat in my moment of losing weight and someone noticing it!

I checked my weight this morning; I do almost every day to keep myself in track and I don’t consider it official till each Monday but if it remains the same, I’m down from 266 to 263.5, which would make up for the .5 gain last week.

*crosses fingers*

The weight’s slowly but surely coming off. (YAY!) I can’t wait till this time next year but in other news, Johnny’s going to the vet today to see what’s wrong with his back legs. Does this mean I have to get a job again? Maybe so, maybe not. It’s not that I don’t want one, I just don’t want to go back to Wal-Mart but if I have to, then so be it.

Johnny gets around pretty good with his two front feet but he’s definitely spending more time just sitting still or laying down but still giving his back legs bad looks. I bet the poor guy’s confused as hell and pissed off too boot because he doesn’t know why the hell he can’t use his legs now. This was all so sudden and I’m really hoping, it’s temporary.

As soon as R gets back here with his mom, they’re taking him to the vet and so, they need to quit f***ing around and get here. The dog is more important right now than anything either one of them can conjure up.

Crosses Fingers.

i’m in a challenge on sparkpeople and I’m damned and determined to win but I think in the end, it’ll be more for the challenge than what it started for. You see, a girl had suggested that she’d put together a gift set or some lingerie for the winner but now that girl doesn’t even post in the team, very discouraging to say the least. I hope our leader at least keeps in contact with the girl, otherwise my 6 weeks of exercising every day is for nothing almost - don’t get me wrong, I’d exercise at least 4 to 5 days a week even if I wasn’t in the challenge but for 42 straight days wouldn’t happen. I want to rest but it’s so close to the end, it’d be silly to give up now. As soon as the 15th rolls around, I’m taking 3 days off from working out, it’ll probably do me some good but I will at least say the challenge is making me move more.

So far, since starting spark, I’ve lost about 24 lbs even though my ticker says less on the site, I’m taking in consideration that I had to buy a new scale because the old one wasn’t cutting it. I bought the new scale 2 weeks into joining Spark.

And just to make note of something that shocked the hell out of me, Rikki Rockett, drummer for Poison arrested on rape charges. I don’t think it happen, I think it’s bullshit and that will come out in the end. If it indeed is bullshit, I hope he sues the girl .
If it isn’t bullshit and he did do it, then all respect has been lost for mr.rockett and I’ll be damned if I’d be paying for rockettmafia.net another year. If he did it, he deserves to go to prison and be fucked in the ass by a guy with a bigger cock than his own!

But back to if he didn’t, if he didn’t, other than Rikki suing the girl in question, the girl should have to have long extensive chats with REAL VICTIMS of RAPE!

Honestly, I don’t know what happen but from what I know of Rikki and of the chances he’s had to rape a girl that I know of, I think it’s bullshit. You know, with the  internet around, it makes me wonder, would we have ever heard about it if the internet wasn’t around? I doubt it because Bret was arrested for the same shit, turned out to be the girl was lying and her boyfriend and her came up with the idea of it to hit a star for money, Bret was the target.

Also, to any of you bitches that have called rape on a guy when it wasn’t true, this also goes for mothers when your little princesses are sluts and you can’t deal with it.
Anyway, for all of you women out there that have FALSELY  screamed rape, you suck and you make it hard for the real victims to be believed! You’re the worst type of woman there is and you deserve not to walk the face of the earth free to spout your b.s, you deserve to be locked up serving the years the man would have received.

So yesterday is my actual weigh in day and it read 272.5 but I was bloated so I made sure to get at least 7 glasses of water in and just for shits and giggles, I stepped on the scale today and it read 270. Of course, I don’t consider this “official” until I see 270 or less next monday. I plan to stay more in my ranges this week and lay off the fast food joints unless it’s Subway. To be honest with you, if you plan right, you can have just about anything including the meals that are loaded with fat, salt, calories and carbs. I put one of my recipes on sparkpeople the other day but only so my mom could include it in her meal plan for that day, yes, it’s loaded with fat, salt ( salt from the food being made by the people that make it not salt added by me. ) , calories and carbs and a few people griped and said bad things. Point being is, I was I still in ranges as was mom. Our dinners tend to be larger to make the ranges, sometimes I’ve already ate enough through the day that I don’t do this.

For other people, that meal wouldn’t have worked for that particular day but because it’s loaded with those things does not mean you can’t have it EVER, you just have to figure out how to make it work with your day. It’s about planning and knowing what you’ve done during the day to see if you can have that piece of pie or that alcoholic drink, it’s not about elimination. For some people, yes, it’s best for them to eliminate stuff from their diets because they can not control themselves around certain items. Myself, I can’t control myself around pizza. So, I try not to order pizza if I can get away with it but I have a boyfriend who isn’t on a diet and isn’t interested in losing weight right now.

Although, I’d like for him to drop about 50 lbs for health issues and to preserve his already fucked ankles but he’s not ready too, so I can’t force him to always eat like I do. I sometimes have to bend the rules for him and so far, it hasn’t hampered my weight loss.

Anyways, enough of my blabbing about weight, let’s talk about Rock of Love 2, Bret Michaels and Perez Hilton.

First of all, I began my obsession with Poison and Bret Michaels at a very young age, I was like 10 when I first said - “He’s cute.” , speaking of Mr.Michaels. So, needless to say this was way before the age of reality shows and I’m one of the few fans or at least one of the few fans that I know if that thinks A.) Bret’s doing this for publicity. B.)Bret wears a wig.

Now about Rock of Love, I liked Kristy Jo in that I’d like to f her brains out kinda way but because I’m an odd one, I was sad to see her leave. I think Megan and Daisy suck balls, Megan sucks more than Daisy. Out of the ho’s left, I want to see Amber win. ( I think that’s her name. Aubry , maybe? It starts with an A. It’s the one that got to stay out of fluke because the one girl left on her own. )

See, now if Kristy would have already had “shit” taken care of, she’d still be there and that blowhole Megan would be gone.

Next thing about Rock of Love, IT’S FAKE! IF you this show is “reality”, then you’re a moron! It’s SCRiPTED!

Now about Perez Hilton, I think he’s entertaining in that annoying sorta way. I can only handle him in small doses and I think he’s a fake, I can’t quite put my finger on it but he seems fake to me. However, it was fun seeing him ask Bret if he stuffs his pants — hmm, watch A Letter From Death Row the shower scene and judge for yourself OR get a hold of the Bret/Pammy porno and judge for yourself. Bret’s not tiny but he’s not a “drummer”, either.

Still have a fat face but i guess it does look a bit smaller, I remember when I weighed 240 or so, there will be a bigger difference. Anyway, I’m down to 271.5 and I hope that I reach at least 250 by my birthday if not lower. ( October 3rd.) I’m trying to be realistic about this, like many others I want to lose it fast but I know that’s not safe unless under doctor supervision and I’m going this alone so I’m taking it slow. So from January 8th till now, I’ve lost 16 lbs, maybe more, I don’t remember when I bought the new scale. The digital probably isn’t 100 % accurate but at least, it’s showing some loss and gain if I step on it at night. By now, I can predict rather or not if the scale is going to say I lost anything by Monday - by stepping on it on Sunday night. I weigh every Monday morning after peeing and on an empty stomach.  I’m happy of the “known” 16 lb loss and I will be ecstatic when I reach my goal weight. If I’m happy at 160, I’ll stay there, if I think I could go a bit lower without looking ridiculous I will.

The last time I weighed in, I weighed in 274 lbs, that’s 3 more lbs gone but still a lot to go but I’m fighting the fight so to speak. I’m trying to turn this healthy living into my new lifestyle, I  try to eat only when I’m hungry but I do sometimes give into temptations. All in all, I’m doing a lot better than I was 3 months ago, I believe I’ll lose the weight this time.

I think once I hit 265 lbs, I’ll start doing a video blog about my weight loss journey and see how that goes.

Anyways, I hope everyone has a wonderful weekend.

No the two aren’t joining forces.

We got AT&T DSL yesterday and even though the speed is the same as clearwire’s that we have, the dsl is delivering a much better performance than what clearwire ever did with Halo 3.

There hasn’t been any weird ass ghosting, just a few times but that’s been because that person’s connection has sucked!

Now to talk about Wal-Mart, I ordered a heart monitor through their website a few days ago and paid the extra fourteen dollars to have it here quick. Well, it’s still not here and I don’t blame Wal-Mart for that. You see, I used my boyfriend’s credit card to purchase it and well, his bank water the charged verified with him on the line, I knew nothing of it until yesterday. I happened to check the email I set up specifically for online blah blah for R.

Well, Wal-Mart had sent a letter stating that I needed to contact them or my order was going to be canceled. Well low and behold, come to find out, for some odd reason Wal-Mart called his mom’s house and one of the ladies there answered the phone. THEY NEVER told him  about it, so therefor, I never knew about it.

So, I’m aggravated with his mom and sis right now because they failed to deliver this message to him. If it was something that didn’t have 130 dollars tied to it, I wouldn’t of cared but HELLO! I almost lost my f!!!ing order because of this!

I do blame Wal-Mart for NOT CALLING the number that I listed for shipping and billing which was his CELL PHONE! Had they called that, I would have known sooner and my stuff would probably already be here, as is because of both of these f!ck ups, I have to wait longer now.

Weight Loss:
I didn’t lose any weight last week but I know why, I’ve been slacking off but I didn’t gain any either. So, i’m happy for that but now this week is to get back into gear and start doing what I’ve been doing. I will lose 15 lbs by April 15th and I will win the challenge  on one of my sparkpeople teams.

This week resolutions:
Drink my water.
30 minutes of exercise for Tuesday thru Saturday.
Keep my ranges in the right area.
Cook more at home and quit going out to eat.

I’m down to  280 which is still a fuck load of weight and I realize that but I’m still digging my feet into the upward batte of losing this weight. I did cheat last night but  that’s okay because I’m right back into  it today.  I went to the gym yesterday and worked on the elliptical and treadmill, I was changing up the resistance and what not myself. The  pre-programmed one I was using  was getting too easy for me to use anymore so I’m going to start doing it myself or try one of the other pre-programmed settings and see what they can do for me. So, I’m down 7 lbs within’ the past 2 weeks which isn’t a lot considering my weight but I’m striving for success and I’m not going to give up this time. It’s not worth it to give up this time.