i actually care more about getting a job right now than being on the internet. i yearn to be out of the house but the question comes up - how long will that last?How long can I last at any job before I get bored with it or pissed off at the way the things are going? I applied at gamestop, I’d really like to work there - it seems i live there now, why not get paid for it.

The more I think about things, the more I want to change them and that would mean breaking up with my boyfriend because apparently no matter what I do for us or him - it’s not right.

It also seems that he doesn’t like being around me - I thought I’d offer to go with him and his friend to the damn store because I usually tell him no on going anywhere with him and he shot me down. I offered to go with him Tuesday night when he had a pool game, he told me it was a spanish bar and that I wouldn’t like it there.

And when he does go and do something with me, it’s basically to places no one that knows him will catch us together.