There’s two pairs of pants my uncle has that I want, they’re camoflauge army like pants - the type you’d get from Army Surplus or the likes.

I want them but they fit a 28 to 39 inch waist * stretchy waist * and I’m a 44 inch waist, maybe 42 but I tend to go for the 44’s and up because I like anything tight on my tummy no more.

So, I’m going to attempt to use those as my motivation for losing weight, maybe that’ll be the kick in the butt I need to utilize the bus pass I have to walk to the west side walmart to catch a bus so I can go to the gym most days.

I need to lose weight for health reasons alone but have never stuck it out, the most I’ve lost at one time is 50 lbs and have kept most of it off. Other than health reasons, I want to be a mommy one day and  that deep gut feeling I have is that if I were to get the weight off, I’d actually become pregnant fairly quick of trying to conceive.

My gut’s usually right about my own self so I need to just focus on losing the weight.