I’m glad I have Dish network, I don’t have to nor will I have to deal with the bullsh*t of having a converter for my mom and uncle’s t.vs.
And since I work at wal-mart, I see how many idiots that don’t know how to read the EXPIRATION date on the damn coupons for the things.
It’s sad that a lot of the people with those damn things have like 2 coupons and they make more fucking money than me.
Quit being cheap and just buy the damn converters yourself.
I’ve lost a pound and a half since the last time I weighed but that’s better than a gain but I need to get back to 100% at this instead of a possible 65%.
Anyway, I came home last Monday to find that my internet was down – figuring it was just to do with the crappy wiring southwesteren bell did in the first place, I didn’t think nothing of it.
Well, come to find out within 20 minutes or so of trying to get it to come back up, I realized that the ethernet port was blown. Ahh, the fun in talking to Aaron’s, I hated every time I have to talk to rental places about my computers because it becomes a big fucking hassle.
Dell, finally came through and sent a new motherboard to someone to put in my computer. Problem solved.
The assholes at Aaron’s told me that anytime “dell’s tech” worked on the computers, they still had problems with the computers. Then that leads me to believe that the problem isn’t the computer but more so the person.
In the midst of the ethernet port on the computer going to shit, my modem went to shit as well and so, I had to order another one of those – to the tune of 70 dollars and quite franlky I could have just waited till I got paid and just paid 50 at Wal-Mart for the same damn modem.
But I figured it’d get here quicker than what it did and went thru At&T, I should have just waited, it would have only been a few days difference.
Every muscle in my legs are screaming in pain and all I did was that EA Active Sports game for Wii. That’s insane, no workout has ever done that to me except for when I went to the gym and actually did a step class and it wasn’t my legs that hurt, it was my abs because of all the ab work she had us do.
Good lord, my legs feel like that – as if I worked with a professional and I’m always doing squats or something on an everyday basis just to keep muscle function going on in them.
I wish I could say I remember to do that with my abs and arms but I don’t do it that often with them and I have a feeling when I change my stretch band up, my arms are going to be screaming as well.
Maybe, it’s because it’s more like circuit training than it is anything else and it keeps me moving the whole entire 20 minutes instead of asking me questions of how I feel and how was that last segment. It just keeps the beat rolling the whole time and that’s cool.
So, I’m going to have to definitely say I like this one a lot better that my fitness coach a lot better. “Sorry Mya”, Bob Greene kicks some serious ass.
So, I have a concert I’m going to in Dallas, Texas on September 29th and I want to wear a particular shirt by said band. So, from now until that time I must dedicate myself again to losing as close to 30 lbs as possible. Although, the “weight number” could be a lot lower if after the 30 lbs is lost if I had been able to maintain the lowest weight I achieved last year. However, I’m a fuckup and fucked up my low number and gained like a jackass. So, now my 30 lbs loss will result in just 10 lbs lower than my lowest weight last year. Okay, that sounds really fucked up when re-reading it but I don’t feel like re-typing it, so whatever.
In case, you haven’t figured it out YET; the band is Metallica!
So, now onto E.A Sports Active, I just bought it Thursday and used it around midnite tonight because of my sucky job at Wal-Mart I must keep an odd schedule. It actually made me sweat the first time around, I don’t know if that’s from the lack of not really working out or because it’s working. So, I’m going to take the 30 day challenge and see what it does for me.
By the way, I ain’t getting paid for this and so if it works slightly or a lot or whatever, then it’s done it’s job and it was worth the 58 dollars I paid for it. *thanks to that 10% discount at crap mart.*
So, that takes me to this blog – I’m going to lose the damn weight, I’m going to start walking home from work most days as well as using the EA Sports Active game, as well as My Fitness Coach and maybe throw Wii Fit in there too just to mix things up. Considering, I can’t really afford a 50 dollar a month gym fee, I have to make due with what I got.
So, my pathetic scale number read 255 and that blows because I had gotten down to 234 which is a lot closer to 155 than what 255 is to it. BLAH!
However, I can at least that I’m not back up to 287.5 lbs and if that had happened, I probably would have hung myself. I’m tired of being the fat and ugly girl/bitch*; I want to be the skinny and sexy girl/bitch*.
Next week, I plan on doing a youtube update, it’s time to re-dedicate myself to me and my weight loss goals! 155 here I come and plan to stay or leave you behind!
*- depending on how a person views me.
I want to do something exciting, I just don’t know what. I want to have a baby but I don’t know if I can and I would adopt but I seriously don’t see the likelihood of that happening either because I’m not technically financially fit to adopt a child and my boyfriend’s father’s shady past/present/future/whatever.
I want a better life but I don’t know which route I want to take on achieving that and the big 3 0 is creeping up on me quicker than I like and I’ll still be over 200 lbs when that time comes. Of course, that one being my fault alone – ahh – I can at least strive to be as close to under 200 lbs as possible come that time.
Off to workout!
Okay, granted, it’s not really help when you shake the fucker’s hand and then push ‘em off but either way, in a very twisted and sick way, I find it funny as hell.
I don’t know, maybe because I’ve tried killing myself but came through that part of my life unscathed and alive.
I mean come on, you’re up on that ledge, thinking and then bam someone pushes you the fuck off and what if in that last moment – you received the call or even text that changed everything and some dick comes by and “helps” you out of your situation. That’s fucking crazy, I bet he wasn’t expecting that shit
However, I see the “attempted murderer”s point of view, he was holding up traffic because he’s in debt and so he’s using this as his scapegoat to get out of it. I also can see the “attempted suicide victim’s” point of view as well – 200 thousand dollars in debt!?!?!? – that has got to suck.
Either way, I bet that’s not how he had things planned out for that day.
I have no idea what I want to do with mine and I’m almost 30 years old. I know that I don’t want to work at Wal-Mart forever nor do I want to work in a convenience store or a fast food joint.
So, with that said, that pretty much limits me to nothing right now and I need to figure out what I want to do before it’s too late and I’m stuck in one of these awful places for life because momma’s not gonna be around forever.
Ugh, I wish I knew what to do or had a plan that I could start pushing towards right now.
Double ugh!, it’s almost 7 and that means in 3 hours from that time I have to be at work. I’d rather stay at home and try to figure out what I want to do.
This sucks.
And never want to understand it, how a bitch can have a child and end up killing them. * on purpose *
What the fuck went so wrong in your life, that you take out all the pain on your child?
I don’t know if I can even have children and to read when some bitch has killed her child because of abuse or some other stupid reason – it pisses me off to no end.
If you don’t want to have children ever or you think you do and then discover that you don’t , you have choices.
Give the child up for adoption or don’t have unprotected sex.
I would say abortion but I think that should only be used in certain cases, if you’re just a slut spreading your legs open and too damn lazy to be a mother. Then you should have that baby and give that baby up for adoption .
Blogged.Com has my site as a 6.2 out of 10. I wouldn’t rate this place that high right now, I hardly do anything to it as of late. I haven’t the care for it right now, it’s the least of my worries – my main worry is actually trying to make it to work every night I’m suppose to be there , like tonight, I’m suppose to go in and I can’t fucking sleep!
I have to be there in 2 hours, fuck me!
I have gained nineteen pounds since starting work, it ends now!